Here i am again, mindlessly posting away when instead I should be at the study table, preparing for the final challenge that I am besieged with. No i will never surrender. Big words for such a person of small will. If so, would I dare face my challenges head on? Its obvious that i am not happy with my results, although i have made minor inprovements. Every where it is the same constant reminders, "There is only a month left to O levels, which means there is still time." Isn't it obvious there is still time? It is the matter of how one makes use of the time. Perhaps i started off a little too late. And now I am paying the price for procrastinating and adjourning my responsibilities. To myself especially, which is a shame.

I was having a discourse with one of my teachers after school. Although, I have been failing his class quite miserably, he has always been paient with me. Sometimes I wonder why I defy him. Whether it is intentional or not. He has been nothing but helpful although its not obvious, and when you really listen, there are many meaningful life lessons one may learn.

My prelims have got me thinking, if i have an average of a 6.4 msg from a 7.2, am i actually improving? No. I'm suppose to hit 3.4 as my msg. which means i have to really cram for the O levels. Constantly reminding myself, there is time to play when all this is over. I just have to settle for "pleasure" depravation for two months. Sure i can hold out? Can't I?

Plus once i hold out, the next 6 months will be nothing but packed with projects that are long overdue. SVA, SSC, VentureHood. Work. But most of all it is the SVA that i look forward to the most. For the past two weeks, nothing but this has been on my mind. To be able to grasp that perfect idea/ story and turn it into moving art.

However, the only flaw to this great idea is how am i going to find a freaking female lead, and the male lead to go along with it. Surely I am able to find a photogenic couple? With the stuff I have planned out, its best if i find those who are willing and most of all, mature enough to work professionally. This applies to the rest too. As much as i would like to have the team enjoy themselves on this project, I would like to make a clear statement that I do not tolerate slackers. As much as I am one myself. I do know the fine line between work and play. Although I like it better that the two are merged. *Nothing but contradictory sentences* haX.

Got to go rest now, tommorow is still a school day.

~Love that certain someone still, maybe even more. However, now is not the time for this.~