another memorable thurs...i'll juz sum it up...

1. after sch...went to meet up wif meng, zach, darren, yi song

2. had some fun...
2.1. go canteen...hen is there, purposely lure darren.
2.2. darren act dun care
2.3. we took a walk around sch (zach, meng, brian, yi song----> SWAT team thursday.
2.4 lots of junk happened.
2.5 we found out a particular formula...hehez..
2.5.1. D - bsyz = D + H (kinda)

3.1 hen left...went to regroup

3.2 song left (father fetch home

3.3 stuck wif zach and meng..darren soon go home wif ho yin

3.4 still stuck wof meng and zach under code "17"

3.5 zach re-assigned

3.6 brian's mission posted out, mission withdrawn till furthur notice.

3.7 meng re-assigned, brian moves out to return to base

4. plans to re-group wif meng and zach on transport to individual base.

4.1 intercepted meng.

4.2 meng and brian intercepted zach

4.3 drop-off to accompany meng to switch vehicles.

4.4 meng boards bus 39

5. zach and brian walks bck to individual bases

5.1 kinda legitimate conversation was held.

6. returned to base (brian's hse ^_^)

-mission thursday E_N_D-

hahaz...today damn slack in school time... the lessons all so easy one...even at the end of the day...bio was FUN. It had always been a great lesson, juz tt by the end of it all,i farkin no energy to study bio liaoz. stupid curriculum.

anywyas..after bio finish, i went to foyer tok tok to syafi they all...wif mel...he waitin for his lao po~, so i dun disturb him..hahaz...

onli when about 4 o'clock, dunno from where meng and yisong appear...den they sit down..we tok cock la...till we saw henrietta. hahaz. wait for darren finish his robotics.

~fast forward~

darren arrive liaoz...wan to go home??....not yet!

we disturb him (meng and me) until make him farkin pai seh..but it was gd for hm oso la....hahaz....go darren! go tok to her!!!
den frm nowhere, ah meng dare me for 2 farkin dollars to ask for henrietta's hp no. i dare lor....hahaz...this year i like diff person sia..or shld i say this term, i alot of face to throw away...hahaz.

so i went up to her...tok cock...then her frenz cao extra...like try to make me pai seh...hahaz...NO WAY!!!...i make them pai seh...den i ask for her no. she pass to me....yea!!!....but i oso dun care....juz wan my 2 bucks.

ah meng dun b'lieve i got her no. i show..den....hahaz..."V".
den after tt ah meng dare darren to ask....if i can get y not him....
he jalan jaln...take one BIG round den go tok to her...dunno wad happened...he come bck wif her no.(use ah meng hp...) gd for him....

but in the process of askin, "H" like "pissed off?" go and shout here shout ther....den her KB frenz call my name...o well....at least they got my name rite...hahaz....dun bordar.

anywyas...we disturb disturb until french horn section finish...den serene come out...go wif CSM den all go home...

less than 2 hrs after all the fun...here i am....sitting in the dark of the evening..writing this for ur sick, twisted, deranged mind....to satisfy the boredom in ur life...u farkin no life loser!....ur a loser for juz readin this...mwahahaha....

Desires of R3aL_Em0tioN
3/24/2005 07:14:00 PM 269 comments













i bluddy haven finish, y u anyhow scroll!!!...ahaX

if u were smart...u noe i'm jk....~yea!~...
if u holdin an IQ equivalent to the width of a pea in cm...... gd luk to you..

anyways.....next entry involves my goal for the near future and the future itself....

i oso still wan my two dollars.....AH MENG!!!!!!

~peace~

Sch is re-opened....haiz...bck to doin work.which is basically wad we have been doin the past mths....hahaz

i hav a gd feelin bout this term though...cept for the harder practical exams and mid- year's...but i 'm working...seriously...
gd feeling as well....not so farked up like last term..last term was like...

"WAD THE HELL IS HAPPENING?!!?"..kinda like i seriously didn't noe wad was goin on..too many things on my mind...

now...i've cleared my head...i have onli one goal....do well for my o' levels...
after i clear tt....i have a little surprise my "gaylord" fren during grad nite..hehehez....MWAHAHAHA!!!!

den when i'm 18...go for my class 2b liscense....get a nice HONDA?...currently my dream bike is a Honda Shadow Aero.....tt is when i reach class 2...

for now it's a Phantom 200....hahaz...thai-make....

~Cheers~

~i am no longer a prisoner to that sad piece of shiet feelin' tt makes u feel inhibited and scared for the first time called love.....i am now a prisoner to tt sad piece of shiet feelin' tt makes u feel inhibited and scared called....."OH MY FREAKIN' GAWD....O' LEVELS!!!".....~

It's been 2 days since i came bck frm my scouts job week camp...andi still feel so tired..i wld hav expected to be able to get more slp since i am helping to run the cmap but apparently my job isd nvr ending so i am slping at most 1 or 2 hrs evey nite cos i hav to settle the accounts and other stuff. (at least i get to access the staff lounge..hahaz...)

the cmap has been very taxing...y...b'cos i hav juniors hu are to spoon-fed at home..i am waiting to see when we can toughen them up...but still...the way the troop is run is getin out of hand...we hav to change it soon....the way punishments are met out....no wonder so many ppl are leaving.

today..is the first day of band camp....yesterday was the strt of ncc cmap..basically sum of my close frenz are in there...damn...regrets run thru the course of my veins....there's nuthin more better sounding to me than knowing tt besides ur camp...there's another cca camp wif ur frenz in it.....maybe i feel this way noe cos of changes in the past three mths....three mths tt i wished i could have changed....wished tt nvr happened...

no matter....i hav oready gone so far in my scoutingship....i can go furthur...but i am tied down to other responsibilities..to my self..and to my frenz.... to family....hahaz...

this is so farkin sad....i am stuck at home....doin hmwrk...thinking abt wad my frenz are doin....although i hav said i hav oready let her go...deep dwn i noe i can't..i dunno y...curses a thousand time over...

damn..when will sch re-open..i wanna get on with my life..the o' lvls...i am not yet prepared for the challenges tt is set for me up ahead..but i noe i am ready to go thru the process of getting there.....

~life has it's trials and tribulations.....with courage can u go thru it~

~i hope she has a fine time at camp~

~ wish i cld look out for her~

~i can't... .... ....~

I'm gonna put the stories on hold....many things happened the pas few days i haven't been blogging...

lets start off with my results...or lets say my attitude.
it's oficial...my change with my attitude have finally struck a tone with almost everyone i noe...family, frenz and teachers. i tot it was sumthin tt wld pass by as time got by..but...i admit it, i hav denying it for the past time...saying it wasn't bothering me juz made it worse.much worse.
yes..i do like her..so wad. it not's like anythings gonna happen...it was juz a farkin waste of my 50 bucks..and my time...fark it.
of all times to try and find someone....not now..i have things to do. impt things. if i did care for her...even if she didn't feel quite the same as me...i wld juz bck off...isn't tt wad i hav been doin the past few weeks?

i came bck frm the parents-teacher thing about an hr ago from 10:00pm, it was me alone in the class with mdm gill, one on one. we were tokin, and she asked me if anythnig was bothering me...i was like yea...there is...... at the bck of my mind. but i cldn't tell her...so i juz gave her the same facade i have been showin everyone else...i'm ok, dun worry. still she knew sumthin happened....tt resulted in my change of behaviour...quiet, withdrawn. it ain't helping my marks either. damn...i juz wish..i cld get away frm it all....

sumtimes..i lay awake on my bed...i strt thinkin'...abt things i hav done and regretted....i regretted not doin this...regretted doin tt....like my life plashed b4 my eyes...as if i'm dying. but then i get up frm my bed and realize, wait, i'm not dead.so y this regret?...and y do i feel worser as time goes on...slowly.

i found the ans to my problems....i'm letting go...seriously...so guys...to those hu noe..i wld appreciate it if u stopped with wadever ur doin...such as saying stuff abt me and ~her~. for example when her mom popped by....u noe la.

i seriously wun wan to be reminded of anything tt i did....for her...damn. i woke up....it wasn't meant to be....now i hav onli one thing on mind...my O's...if i go crazy abt it.....well....life goes on.

but b4 i let go..i juz wanna say sori...even if she dun read my blog.


~sori if farked up any part of ur life in anyway...concentrate on ur studies.i noe how u did...it's sadddening.....u dun need another farker like me in ur life,... be happi...~


~Cheers~....